To Everything There Is A Season.

And now I have this song in my head! Indeed there is a time to laugh and a time to weep. As I entered my last week of work here at the job place today, I couldn’t help but be happy and sad. I’ve laughed so much recently with friends and family, but I have also cried. Sometimes you just need a cathartic cry, amiright? One in which your whole body shakes and you make noises you had no clue could actually emanate from your soul. I always sleep like a baby after a good cry.

I’m about to start a career that has been 10 years in the making. And I am scared shitless. BUT I say that while I simultaneously know I am also smart and excited and capable and a quick learner and will be great at this job. I honestly think that if I wasn’t meditating every morning I would be a panic stricken mess. Like, panic attacks daily.

Lately I’ve been working on gratitude. I’ve discovered a few things about myself recently that have made my heart heavy, but at the same time, I am more hope full than ever before. I am grateful that I can wake up every morning and have a fresh 24 hours to start it all again. I am grateful for old and new friends that inspire me to try to be better and who allow me to fall down, but never for long. I am grateful to have had recent revelations even though they have brought pain with themΒ because they are what make me so amazingly ME. I am grateful for family. I am grateful for delirious laughter. I am grateful for planning future trips.

I’m grateful for you, dear reader, whoever you are. Now. Let’s all have a good cry, then dry our tears, and be grateful together =)